Here we Go!

I am in complete I do not know. That is my feelings right now I feel anxiety and nervousness's. I am unhappy because I should be happy right now but I am not. I just registered for my graduation, I got my graduation date and everything. I should be excited but all I can think about is how fat I am gonna look in my cap and gown. It makes me sad that I feel bad about this. I have work so hard to get to this point but I am sad. I am frustrated because I need this fat to be gone I do not want it in my life anymore I need to get up and do something. I am thinking to myself maybe this event is what will motivate me to do the damn thang. Maybe vanity. I have missed so much because of my weight. I missed my class reunion. I miss seeing friends. I want the shame to go away. I hope this blog will help me. I am willing to try anything to get this weight off. It will be hard for me cause I am a food addict I need support, so much support but I am ready for this roller coaster ride