Don't even know if the sun was shining today

Been all in my feelings today. Life is so funny sometimes. You think people care but truth is they only care when it can benefit them. Its a damn shame. Today is fathers day I have kept myself in my apartment all day have not even seen the daylight. Just don't feel like it just don't want to so sad I know but oh well we all have these days so this is my day. I truly really really miss my Dad. I cannot help but to imagine how it would have been if he had grown into a elderly old man. Shit truly hurts that his life was oh so short I know for a fact he would not have wanted me to be crying and sad all day but I can't help it. It also hurts that I don't have a aggressive friend to come by and drag me out the house because I am depressed .

Hurts like hell yeah it does but what I have to do is just pretend that everything is freaking peachy. Thank God I have my boy he knows that I am feeling some type away he actually came right in front of me and wipe the tear off of my face and it caused more tears to fall. My son is not verbal but he has the biggest heart and loves his mommie.  This is a dedication to my Father His favorite song